#SweaterWeather

#sweaterweather real talk comin' in hot.☕#teatime

Who doesn't love sweater season... The fall leaves changing🍁, the fall smells in the air🎃... The oversized sweaters... Chunky scarves... Paired with your favourite leggings and boots🤗.

With autumn weather comes a sense of comfort, a sense of warmth as you tuck yourself away for the winter months. You seem to take extra time for yourself. Whether it's brewing yourself a cup of tea and enjoying a movie by the fire, or snuggling into a cozy sweater as you do something fun like paint, or dabble in a new hobby.

I would desperately wait for fall.... The season where wearing sweaters that are FAR too big for you is considered fashionable, where no one would look twice if you were literally swimming in your outfit. teen thinking about how many calories I had to burn to lose a certain amount of weight, to fit into my size 6 shorts.

Every winter I would slave away, trying to fit into shorts that were 3 sizes too small that fit me the year prior. I would get to June and I would be overwhelmed with a feeling of defeat, and I would slide into my comfortable and even baggy size 11 shorts....and just give up on ever being able to enjoy the summer months in whatever the hell clothing I wanted.

I would desperately wait for fall.... The season where wearing sweaters that are FAR too big for you is considered fashionable, where no one would look twice if you were literally swimming in your outfit.

I was out last week in a few stores, and went home with 3 sweaters that are at least 2 sizes too big... With the thought of comfort and safety top of mind. It is comfortable for me to hide in my baggy sweater. It is comfortable for me to be covered from my neck to mid thigh. It is comfortable to know that no one would be looking at any extra fluff I may have on my body. It is comfortable knowing that no one would see anything I didn't want them to see.

So here I am... The end of September desperately waiting for sweater weather so I can be a turtle and hide in my shell over sized sweaters for 6 months of the year. So I can hide away for 6 months of the year.... Because I failed at summer.

Like a turtle hides in their shell away from the world, I hide in my bid, comfy, oversized sweaters. Like a caterpillar in her cocoon awaiting to emerge a butterfly, I hide away, safe and protected from what people might think as I transform.

Time to shift that. The past week I have put together a plan.... I still purchased a few more sweaters... But trying to shift my mindset about them slowly but surely❤️ Part of the problem I have always had is the idea of always looking my best for summer....but as I get older, I want to FEEL my best all the time.

I want to fuel my body for what I am asking it to do. I want to look good...who doesn't, but I want to FEEL good. I want to have more energy, and make time for more fun thing, try some new hobbies, spend more time with friends and enjoy every month of the year and not put so much pressure on myself for 3 months of the year.

It is ok to have a safety blanket....or in my case, a closet full of sweaters, but it's not ok to rely on them because you feel you have failed and you want to hide yourself away from the world.

I am thankful that I am surrounded with some beautiful people in my world who bring so much positive vibes and motivation to be a better version of myself while LOVING myself through the process. I'm also super thankful for the ladies I have met through this platform who help encourage me to push myself past my own self set limitations❤️